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Long Quiet Highway by Natalie Goldberg

Posted by on October 13, 2008 in Uncategorized

Long Quiet Highway by Natalie Goldberg

A memoir of a woman waking up through the practices of writing and Buddhism 1993 Natalie Goldberg has published ten books.  Seven of these I’ve read, including her first book, Writing Down the Bones, and her most recent, Old Friend from Far Away, a book reminiscent of Bones but skewed more toward the writing of memoir.  This book, her third, remains my favorite. I began rereading it on one recent Sunday and ended up finishing nearly the whole book that same day.  It was a September Sunday.  I also cleaned the porch, swam laps, bought a flat of giant pansies, fixed supper, carried on conversations, listened to music.  But between all that, and among all that, I read Long Quiet Highway.  My mind seeming to get quieter and quieter as I read it.  Clearer.  More awake? The subtitle of Ms. Goldberg’s book is Waking Up in America.  If there were a central question to the book it might be this one: What exactly does it mean to be awake?  What might it mean to wake up in America or anywhere else?  What might writing have to do with it?  What might Buddhism have to do with it? First, the long sleep, as counterpoint.  She describes walking through the halls of her high school in Long Island: . . . hair pulled back in a pony tail, walking lonesome down those halls, up and down many flights of stairs, going into Latin and Algebra classes, passing rest rooms and janitor storage rooms, lost for a whole century of my life. She describes a “doomed lethargy.”  A feeling of “disconnection from the present.” Then, moments of awakening:A moment in English class when the teacher turned out the lights and told them to listen to the rain. to connect a sense organ with something natural, neutral, good.  He asked me to become alive.  I was scared, and I loved it. A moment after graduating from college, alone in a rented room, writing a poem about a chocolate cake. It held my entire childhood.  I smelled the baking, the garbage in the streets, heard the cash register ring, felt the newsboy on the corner, saw the green container they used to box the cake.  This was all coming up from someplace inside me.  I wrote my first real poem.  I had never felt this way before. Sensory awakenings.  A sense of re-connecting— A moment in front of a sixth-grade class as a teacher in Albequerque, New Mexico when her chest begins to ache and an image comes to her that her heart is opening like a giant peony. One thing leads to another after that.  She leaves her teaching job and goes to live at the Lama Foundation, a kind of spiritual camp.  She moves to Boulder and studies with Chogyam Trungpa, a Tibetan Buddhist teacher. Eventually she travels to Minneapolis.  She meets, Katagiri Roshi, a Zen Buddhist monk, and asks him to be her teacher.  For me, this is the moment at which this book becomes absolutely compelling.  The moment that pulled me in and kept me reading all of one Sunday.  This in spite of the fact that the moment itself is in many ways quite ordinary.  It occurs in the kitchen of the Zen Center in Minneapolis.  Roshi is wearing...

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Train Your Mind, Change Your Brain by Sharon Begley

Posted by on October 6, 2008 in Uncategorized

Train Your Mind, Change Your Brain by Sharon Begley

An informative and well-written overview of the research on brain plasticity with a foreword by the Dalai Lama 2007 Part One: An Introduction This book is better than it’s title.  Not so much a one-size-fits-all set of instructions for training your mind—in fact not that at all—but rather a systematic review, in clear plain language, of the relevant neuroscience. By the time you come to the end of this book, you might well begin to suspect that we’re training our minds all the time—at the same time changing our brains—whether we’re aware of it or not.  And you might even find yourself wanting to design your own personalized set of instructions. That said, this is also somewhat of a dense book—there’s a lot of information here.  And I’m thinking that rather than try to brush by all of it on one page I’m going to offer an introduction here—enough to give a sense of the book—and then over the next couple months I’m going to take a few of the chapters and look at them more closely. So, an overview—courtesy of the 5 Ws. WHAT AND WHEN? A meeting of the Mind and Life Institute in 2004 on neuroplasticity.  This meeting offering the occasion—and the structure—for Sharon Begley’s book.  The history of the meeting is interesting. Back in 1983, an entrepreneur in California, Adam Engle, who was also a practicing Buddhist, heard that the Dalai Lama was interested in science.  Engle got the notion of making something happen, perhaps a meeting of some sort.  Aware of Fritjof Capra’s book, The Tao of Physics, his first thought was that physics would become the science of interest.  He met with Capra, and found him “lukewarm” to the idea.  Not long afterward he got a call from a neuroscientist, also a practicing Buddhist, by the name of Francisco Varela who had met the Dalai Lama at a conference on consciousness.  He is reported to have told Engle on the phone: “you don’t want this to be on physics; cognitive science makes much more sense.” Thus the Mind & Life Institute was born.  A bevy of cognitive scientists meeting periodically with the Dalai Lama and Buddhist scholars.  This particular meeting on neuroplasticity is number XII in the series. WHERE? The conference was held at Upper Dharamsala, in Northern India, the Dalai Lama’s home in exile.  The meeting took place in the Dalai Lama’s compound, and I appreciate that Sharon Begley gives a sense of the place: “forested with pines and rhododendrons; ceramic pots spilling purple bougainvillea and saffron marigolds surrounding the widely spaced buildings.” WHO? Five neuroscientists and The Dalai Lama along with assorted others—including scientists, Buddhist scholars and students, philanthropists, and journalists—-(all these folks are at the meeting but few speak—mostly the book is about the work of the 5 neuroscientists as it pertains to plasticity; occasionally the Dalai Lama speaks) WHY? The central question of the conference: Does the brain have the ability to change, and what is the power of the mind to change it? WHAT DO I WISH THIS BOOK WOULD HAVE DONE? (An extra W) I wish the book would have offered more of a sense of dialogue among the scientists and the Dalai Lama along with the Buddhist scholars and students who were also present.  Much of...

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How to Begin a Reading Journal

Posted by on September 29, 2008 in Uncategorized

How to Begin a Reading Journal

4 Ideas for Reading —-and Healing 1.    Make a list. This may well be the simplest way in the world to begin keeping a reading journal.  Begin a list of books you've read–or are reading.  Book and author.  Date. If you’d like to do this on-line, you can do it nicely at LibraryThing, a site where you can catalog up to 200 books for free.  And tag and sort them if you like.  And record a few comments.  Such comments becoming a way to ease in–if one so wishes–to keeping a slightly more elaborate reading journal. Setting up an account at LibraryThing is about as easy as it gets.  And the whole site is just kind of appealing.  (Link below.) An entry on LibraryThing looks like this:   2.    Make a two-column journal. This was the method for keeping a reading journal that I learned in grad school–and the kind of journal we were required to keep in a course on teaching literature.  A simple and surprisingly useful reading/learning practice.  So, two columns– In the left column something quoted directly from the text.  A brief passage.  A line.  A word.  Anything that jumps off the page or that you'd like to remember for some reason. In the right column a response of some sort to the quote, in your own words.  The two columns eventually creating a kind of dialog between reader and text.  Back and forth. 3.  Create a journal in two colors–or more. A modification of the two-column journal.  When I'm writing on the computer I find two columns awkward to use.  And I've sometimes found it helpful to use two different-colored fonts instead.  Or just two different fonts.  Or, even simpler, put brackets around my own thoughts and words.  I don't know why this seems easier and better than working with quotation marks—but somehow it does.  For me it encourages that sense of dialog with a text—-the back and forth.  For instance———- If the brain was changeable then we would change.  And if the brain made wrong changes then we would change incorrectly.  It was easier to believe there were no changes.Fred Gage, p. 7Sounds kind of like a poem.  The heart of the book? 4.  Open Google Notebook [Note: I have recently learned (thank you) that this fourth option only works if you've already uploaded and started using google notebook.  Otherwise, it would seem that they have stopped offering it.  And I'm not sure yet what a good substitute would be. Alas, there are always changes.] Have you ever had the experience where you found something on the web and then later you try to find your way back but you can't for the life of you get back there?  Google Notebook is a way to create a trail of pebbles.  And it can become, in the process, a way to keep a reading journal.  Because you can open a new note not just to clip a passage–or image–from a website—but for anything. If you open a note to clip something from the web you have a web journal. If you open a note to write something about a book you're reading you have a book journal. And the two can be combined. Setting up Google Notebook requires a few more steps than starting, for...

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Talking to Grief by Denise Levertov

Posted by on September 22, 2008 in Uncategorized

A poem in which grief takes the shape of a dog in need of a home 1978 This is a short poem—three stanzas.  Five short lines, five more, and then eleven. The first lines express—what?  Second thoughts?  Regret?  A kind of apology? Ah, grief, I should not treat you like a homeless dog who comes to the back door for a crust, for a meatless bone. I should trust you. I love that grief is taking the form of a dog here.  Not the black dog of depression.  This dog here seems a so much gentler dog.  A less frightening dog.  Yet, still, a hungry one. I just reread the last eleven lines. Ah, a dog that knows longing.  A dog that’s been living under the porch all this time.  Close but hidden.  A dog with such longings.  Who knew? You long for your real place to be readied before winter comes. You need your name, your collar and tag. You need the right to warn off intruders, to consider my house your own and me your person and yourself my own dog. I love that: my own dog. I wonder how the “I” of the poem got to this place. Where she came to know that the dog needed a name. And a person to attach itself to. And a place in the house. A rightful place. ___________________________________________________ See also: A bio of Denise Levertov at Poets.org At One Year of Writing and Healing, a brief piece on Rumi’s poem, The Guest House, a poem in which:  “This being human is a guest house./ Every morning a new arrival.”...

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(from) On Being Ill by Virginia Woolf

Posted by on September 15, 2008 in Uncategorized

An essay in which Ms. Woolf argues for illness as a topic for literature and makes a case for creating a new language for illness 1926 I’d been looking for this essay, couldn’t find it in any of my libraries, and was just considering perhaps a purchase, when I came across the essay in a book on my very own bookshelf.  The book is titled The Moment and Other Essays.  It’s a posthumous collection, much easier to find than the single essay. This is how the essay begins: Considering how common illness is, how tremendous the spiritual change that it brings, how astonishing, when the lights of health go down, the undiscovered countries that are then disclosed, what wastes and deserts of the soul a slight attack of influenza brings to view, what precipices and lawns sprinkled with bright flowers a little rise of temperature reveals, what ancient and obdurate oaks are uprooted in us by the act of sickness, how we go down into the pit of death and feel the waters of annihilation close above our heads and wake thinking to find ourselves in the presence of angels and the harpers when we have a tooth out and come to the surface in the dentist’s arm-chair and confuse his “Rinse the mouth—rinse the mouth” with Heaven to welcome us—when we think of this, as we are so frequently forced to think of it, it becomes strange indeed that illness has not taken its place with love and battle and jealousy among the prime themes of literature. And that’s just the first sentence.  171 words if anyone’s counting.  I’m drawn in by the image of those ancient and obdurate oaks.  Uprooted.  I feel like I’ve seen illness do that.  I’m also drawn in by Woolf’s humor—the dentist as heavenly being.  But is this essay a bit dated now that so much has been written and so much is now being written about illness?  Maybe.  Maybe not. According to Judith Shulevitz, writing in the New York Times several years ago, this essay by Woolf came about when T.S. Eliot commissioned the piece for his literary review, The New Criterion.  Eliot, apparently, ended up not liking it much.  But here’s the interesting part.  A few years before this essay, in 1925, T.S. Eliot’s wife had “gone mad”.  And, again according to Ms. Shulevitz, Eliot had consulted Virginia Woolf’s husband on the matter, and he, Leonard, had advised Eliot to keep his wife from writing.  Hmmm.  Shulevitz argues that the subtext of this essay is an argument by Woolf for the act of writing in the face of illness—or, say, in the face of “madness”.  She concludes her review: “Woolf didn’t want sympathy; she wanted not to be silenced, and to prove to Eliot, and to us, that vulnerability has its own kind of genius.” Now that I like—vulnerability with its own kind of genius. For me, this essay by Woolf does have a kernel of genius.  And it comes on the third page of fifteen, a passage in which she laments the poverty of our illness language: Finally, to hinder the description of illness in literature, there is the poverty of the language.  English, which can express the thoughts of Hamlet and the tragedy of Lear, has no words for...

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